I Stand All Amazed

My loveliest and most dearest family,

So as for an update on the missionary life of Hermana Barth!! Let's

see... Well, to be completely honest, this past week was probably the

hardest one I have had on my mission thus far. I hope you all don't

take that too serious though haha because I often don't know if it's

possible for anyone to love being a missionary and serving a mission

more than me. But I do admit this week had been rougher than most. I

think I have knocked on more doors than any of you could possibly

imagine. Last night my District Leader told me every door I knock

gives me more "husband points" though.... whatever that means! hahaha.

All week though we have worked so hard every day trying to contact

lists of potentials, less-actives, formers and even referrals of

investigators that we have received from the other Hermanas but we

have hardly been able to contact any of them. Sometimes we joke and

say they all must be together at a party we weren't invited to. Haha

no but we have just knocked & knocked & knocked our little hearts out,

tracting included, and not seen as great of success as I would like.

Haha one day, while on exchanges with Sister Lewis, we knocked doors

for a total of 7 hours!! 

Don't get me wrong, I actually am a missionary who really enjoys tracting and I don't think 

I could feel more comfortable knocking on complete strangers doors and doing door

approaches haha but still... what I love most is actually being able

to really teach. I absolutely love teaching the gospel and could do it

all day, every day. No doubt in my mind. So when I am not able to,

it's hard on me! I just want to help others learn and grow closer to

our Savior soo much!! If only you knew how great of a desire I have to

do this. I never knew I would have as great of a desire as I truly do.

But with Sister Lewis we were fortunately able to get in a door, her

name is Gloria, she is a new investigator.. and I taught the entire

Restoration (by myself because Sister Lewis is English haha) but that

was great and we have picked up a couple of other new investigators as

well whom I do have a great amount of faith in. But yeah, overall we

haven't seen as much success as I would like and everyone is always

telling us how there is soo much work to be done here and the other

Hermanas and Elders are always so busy... so I want to be apart of it!

I want to be busy teaching & teaching! 

And I know, with time, it will happen. I have to experiment my patience I so often talk,

 study and read about... but it has just been a different week. It also is new

experience for me training a brand new missionary in an area I am

still trying to get comfortable with. Sometimes it makes me a little

sad because I want Hermana Hughes to be able to teach a lot and

experience the great joy that comes from it but we aren't able to as

much as I would like. But luckily she has such a greenie fire in her

and is always as upbeat & positive as can be so we are still trying to

make the very best out of it. I know success is coming along with

many, many miracles. I can feel it. I just crave it so badly right

now!! 

But overall, I am still my same, old, happy self!

 Still absolutely loving being a missionary and would not want to be anywhere

else doing anything else. My mission is everything to me. We have set

some big goals for this upcoming week as well which I hope will really

help. Yesterday we set up times to go visit less-actives with our

Relief Society President and we are going to try to visit lots of

members to gain their trust and receive referrals. I believe that will

truly be key for the work here. The members in this branch are soo

solid and awesome too so I am confident they will be a great help. We

also had over 80 people at church yesterday which was a huge deal.

Felt much bigger than Gridley. We also are getting a list of

less-actives from our Branch President, President Rivera who is sooo

awesome and we just met this past week.. so excited about him, so I

hope that will help. Less-actives are ohh so important to activate

because they already have the ordinances performed and hopefully they

can give us more referrals too. We have a lot to do!! I love it!!

Also, miracle for the week!!! So this morning at church I was just

getting a little sad because we have worked like crazy this past week

and tried so hard to find new people and are completely exhausted from

it... but then we had a baptism for the Elders in our branch tonight,

family of 5, so awesome... and we wanted to bring an investigator so

badly. So with our luck from the week, you'd think we wouldn't be able

to make it happen, but with faith all is possible right?? So we went

to a few investigators homes and we stopped at Agustina's, she's our

more elderly investigator, and we invited her and she said she wanted

to come!!! So we had dinner with the Alvarez family and then they went

and picked her up and she came!!!! Best thing ever!! The other

Hermana's used to teach her too and when they saw her walk in they

were shocked, later asking us how we got her to come.. but she,

without hesitation, wanted to... so it was a miracle!!!! The baptism

was absolutely beautiful and so spiritual too so I couldn't be

happier. She loved it and everyone was so good to her. So we hope to

see her dressed in white very soon. But having her come was such a

miracle for me personally and it was just what I needed after a long

week. It really lifted my spirit and just made me feel oh so good. It

helped me remember how worth it all of my hard work is and how

sometimes even the littlest things mean so much. The littlest things

can be such mercies from God. Also, another tender mercy... the Elders

asked us to teach the Restoration during the time those who were

baptized were changing. We agreed to it, very last minute, but oh was

I so happy we did it. 

This was the first time Hermana Hughes and I have been able to teach the full Restoration together and it was so amazing. While teaching I felt the spirit soo strongly and I was

completely reminded of why I am so happy, why I love my Savior so very

much and why I love being a missionary. I also shared my testimony

which confirmed to me all of my true, sincere beliefs and it just felt

so refreshing and ahh purely amazing. So that was awesome. Also, sooo

many people were at the baptism, including a great amount of members

from our branch and they were all so beautiful to look at while

teaching. I cannot explain it in words. It was so good. Also, Hermana

Rodriguez-Toledo sang "Asombro me da" ... "I stand all amazed" again

and this time it literally made my eyes well up with tears. Along with

so many others. I was just completely humbled listening to the lyrics

and felt it was absolutely perfect for me to hear tonight. I couldn't

help but be overwhelmed with emotions. This past week I have also had

moments where I have felt weak and as though I was lacking faith so it

has led me to pondering & studying over His Atonement a lot. This has

greatly humbled me and I truly do know that through my loving Brother

& Savior, Jesus Christ... I am always able to gain strength and build

upon my faith. I also sometimes feel so imperfect but I know my Savior

suffered & died for me so that I truly can be forgiven of all my many

sins and become cleansed & perfected through Him. So with that all

alone, I stand all amazed.

 I STAND ALL AMAZED

I stand all amazed at the love Jesus offers me,

Confused at the grace that so fully he proffers me.

I tremble to know that for me he was crucified,

That for me, a sinner, he suffered, he bled and died.

Oh, it is wonderful that he should care for me

Enough to die for me!

Oh, it is wonderful, wonderful to me!

I marvel that he would descend from his throne divine

To rescue a soul so rebellious and proud as mine,

That he should extend his great love unto such as I,

Sufficient to own, to redeem, and to justify.

Oh, it is wonderful that he should care for me

Enough to die for me!

Oh, it is wonderful, wonderful to me!

I think of his hands pierced and bleeding to pay the debt!

Such mercy, such love and devotion can I forget?

No, no, I will praise and adore at the mercy seat,

Until at the glorified throne I kneel at his feet.

Oh, it is wonderful that he should care for me

Enough to die for me!

Oh, it is wonderful, wonderful to me!

(In the beautiful language of Español)

             ASOMBRO ME DA

Asombro me da el amor que me da Jesús.

Confuso estoy por Su gracia y por Su luz,

y tiemblo al ver que por mí Él Su vida dio;

por mí, tan indigno, Su sangre Él derramó.

Cuán asombroso es que por amarme ̮así

muriera Él por mí. Cuán asombroso es lo que dio por mí.

Me cuesta ̮entender que quisiera Jesús bajar

del trono divino para mi ̮alma rescatar;

que Él extendiera perdón a tal pecador

y me redimiera y diera Su gran amor.

Cuán asombroso es que por amarme ̮así

muriera Él por mí. Cuán asombroso es lo que dio por mí.

Comprendo que Él en la cruz se dejó clavar.

Pagó mi rescate; no lo podré olvidar.

Por siempre jamás al Señor agradeceré;

mi vida y cuanto yo tengo a Él daré.

Cuán asombroso es que por amarme ̮así

muriera Él por mí. Cuán asombroso es lo que dio por mí.

If any of you ever have a day or week where you feel like things

aren't going your way or things just seem to be too hard.... try to

take a step back and remember all that our Savior Has done for you.

This is what I am trying my best to do and I already can feel the

difference. We must remember to always keep Him in our thoughts and

focus on all He has and continues to do for us. We must remember that

no matter who we are or what we've done.. He loves us unconditionally

and died for each and everyone of us individually so that we can

become ultimately perfected. Also we must remember that it is through

Him and only through Him we can receive complete joy, peace, &

happiness in this life and in the life to come. He is "the way and

there is no other way nor name given under Heaven whereby man can be

saved in the Kingdom of God." (2 Nephi 31:21)

I love you all so much and am so thankful for your love, support and

goodness in my life. I cannot express it enough how much I love you

all. Also, another big blessing... after a long day I received a

darling envelope in the mail from my best friend Hermana Piggott and

tears came to my eyes as I read her sweet words. This was another

great reminder to me of how blessed I am to have such wonderful people

& friendships in my life. Hermana Piggott, I love you so so much. Fam,

I still cannot wait for you to meet her in real life. She is the

absolute best and I couldn't love or adore her more. I think you all

already know that but I can't say it enough. Also, I got to talk to

Hermana Richards on the phone for a minute today and I loved hearing

from her as well. Hermana Richards is one of the best people I know

and I couldn't love her more either. I miss those two every single day

& I sincerely have the best friends ever. These two will forever be

close to me too. Heavenly Father loves me so much to have placed them

in my life. Oh how blessed am I. 

"LIFE IS TOO GOOD"

I love you all more than all of the stars in the sky and I want you to

know I truly would and will do anything & everything for each &

everyone of you. Thank you for being my loved ones.

Con todo de mi amor,

Hermana Barth

Other quick updates.... (These are super important for you, Hermana Piggott)

SAD UPDATE: I unfortunately found out this morning, during branch

council, that Hermano Montero from my Gridley branch passed away last

night. He had 7 heart attacks and didn't make it. I am so sad. No

words can express Hermano Montero and I may have mentioned him in

earlier emails as a very loud member in our branch.. he always would

yell out things during Sunday School or even Sacrament meeting, but he

had the biggest heart and I really always enjoyed him very much. Well

anyways, his dear wife Imelda is ohh so dear to me as well and I am so

sad for her. She is one of the strongest ladies I know of though but

please keep the Montero family in your prayers!! I still cannot

believe Fidel, Hermano Montero, is gone. I heard him bear his

testimony just a few weeks ago and I can still perfectly hear him say

very loudly (which he said every single time I saw him) "HOOOOLA

HERMANA!! ¿CÓMO ESTA?" Oh, it breaks my heart. The branch will

definitely not be the same without him.

FUNNY UPDATE: (to lighten the mood) I finally taught a Punjab!!! We

have a neighbor in our apartment complex, named Sahil, straight from

India.. and he is Hindu/Punjabi and he wanted us to teach him!! So we

did! His English is not the greatest so I am not positive all that he

got out of the lesson but Hermana Piggott used to always say if she

were to baptize a Punjab her mission would be complete (joke haha) but

I actually taught one and it was wonderful!! There are soooo many

Punjab's here but barely any of them speak English so it was awesome.

And also, during our lesson his darling mother, in her full-on Indian

attire, cooked us all this Indian food and it was amazing!!!! I hadn't

tasted anything like it on my mission and it was soo good. She didn't

know a lick of English either but was so smiley and sweet to us. It

was the best!! Haha oh, and also Sahil invited me to go to India with

him for his Sister's wedding... I told him I couldn't and he told me

how I must experience an Indian wedding. Yeah, no words to describe

Sahil. But he is very very nice. Great neighbor. Also, he said some

pretty inspirational quotes that I wrote down.... "We are not here to

focus on ourselves. We are here to focus on others." ... "My heart is

God. Without my heart, I cannot live. So without God, I cannot live."

Classic.

Okay, time to go bowling!! Oh yes. This zone goes bowling for free

every Monday (a member owns an alley) and it is soo much fun. We went

last week and I loved it so much. Also, one of the Elders in my new

zone, Elder Clayburn, is from Pleasant Grove and is friends with

Hermana Howe!!!!! My other most favorite Hermana. Pretty fun to make

that connection. Okay, adios!

Oh!! And there are so many exciting events coming up at home!!!

Abigail's graduation!! David & Hailey's wedding (there invitation is

absolutely flawless and perfect by the way... such a gorgeous

couple... couldn't stop looking at it) haha tell them congrats from me

and that I love them both!! And then Miss Abigail Louise's birthday a

week from today!!!! Soo exciting! I'll write more next week on that.

But make sure to send this missionary plenty of pictures from these

special and important events so I can feel somewhat apart of the

celebrations haha love you all.